I just got through reading Mark’s Week 10 blog and it was as if he knew exactly what I was feeling. The feelings of “maybe this is something that can really happen” to “it can happen to others, but not to me!” I don’t feel so off base, and maybe, just maybe, I can live a life that I’ve been dreaming about. At least, I’m moving towards it instead of away from it! I have hope!
I am fighting being tired at the end of the day when I do my final read of the day. I keep telling myself not to give in to that old blueprint. There has been only 1 night that I can remember where I did give in, and just did not complete the evening read. Hey, that’s not bad for 10 weeks, is it? But to be completely honest, I have not always been fully vested as I should be. That’s when my old blueprint comes to bother me. Unfortunately, that happens more times than I would like, but I now know what is happening! My goal is to not give in so easily. I am in control! (That’s what I have to remind myself!)
I now start shouting out “DO IT NOW!” in my car as I’m driving, almost as soon as I start driving, and many times more than 25 times. Then, right after that I say “I am what I will to be” and I have a list of what I will to be. As an example, “I am what I will to be…laser focused!” “I am what I will to be…Confident!” I have a list of 33 descriptions of what “I will to be” and this gets me excited! I can actually see the possibility of being those descriptions, and sometimes it’s just a reminder of what I can be. I also try to add more descriptions when I can think of them. This has become a daily habit and I really enjoy doing it.
Aha! I think this is what Mark meant about really getting into the exercises. Now I just have to apply this to the list of other things I should be doing! Inch by inch, it’s a cinch! I just have to find other fun ways to get into the other exercises.